Where to start?

Most of those that know me, know that I am just about the biggest procrastinator on earth. And, as you guessed it, nothing is different here. I have put off starting this blog for months and months. I think that maybe I put way to much thought into things - like what to name it, what to write about, will anybody be interested. Before you know it, time has flown by. Anyway, I have finally committed to try this for a while. So here we go ...



I'm really more of a private person and not real sure about posting my life on the Internet for the world to see. I've never been one to keep a diary or journal, so needless to say, this is a little bit out of my comfort zone. But, I'm gonna try! As everybody knows, I have always struggled with my weight. Well, maybe not always, but at least since I was a teenager. My original intentions on this blog were to update and track my weight loss but the more I thought about it, I began to realize that there is more to it than that. It's more about finding myself. There are other things that I like to see change or happen, other avenues that I'd like to explore. After all, I am 38 years old, I have been married for almost 18 years and I have 2 small daughters - a 4 year old and a 8 month old, and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. But, what I do know is that I want to become the wife and mother that they deserve; the woman that they think I am. Photography is one of my biggest hobbies so I promise to include some of my journey and life in photos. Hopefully along the way I can be an inspiration to sombody somewhere, or at least to myself.



So, all that said, let me get back to the basics of this blog - weight loss. In January 2007 I joined Weight Watchers for the second time and lost 35 pounds. Went to Las Vegas. Got pregnant - not in Las Vegas, but shortly after getting back home. Was diagnosed with gestational diabetes and had to prick my finger 4 times a day and take 3 insulin shots daily. I had a beautiful, healthy, red headed baby girl on May 7th. I tried joining Weight Watchers shortly after she was born but I had not completely reached the point of commitment in my mind and I have eaten my way to gaining back almost every pound that had I worked so hard to lose. It's a hard lesson learned, but going to the meetings and paying the money week after week doesn't make you lose weight (who'da thunk?). I have learned that I have to be committed day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. That's what I hope to do here, keep myself committed and accountable. I joined Watch Watchers again 2 weeks ago for the third time, and everybody knows that "the third time is the charm" right? In the last 2 weeks I have lost a total of 4 pounds, not a very big number but big enough for me! Anyway, I have to do this once and for all, for me and my family.

Quotes often help me motivation and inspiration so I plan to include them here too. There is no better way to start it off than this:

At age 67, Thomas Edison lost all of his work in a fire that completely burned his factory to the ground. The next morning as he walked through the ashes he is quoted as saying, "There is great value in disaster. All of our mistakes are burned up. Thank God we can start anew!"